Stepping Through Darkness
Scott Hubbard
For some saints, in some seasons, the spiritual darkness can rest so
thick, and last so long, that normal patterns of obedience begin to
feel futile.
We’ve read and prayed and fought temptation, for weeks or months or
maybe years. But now, perhaps, we wonder what’s the point. Why read
when little changes? Why pray when God seems silent? Why obey in the
lonely dark when no one seems to see or care? The days have been
sunless for so long; why live as if the sky will soon turn bright?
Not all of God’s people have known such seasons. But for those who
have, or will, God has not left us friendless. Here in the dark, a
brother walks before us, his day far blacker than ours, his obedience
a torch on the road ahead.
His story takes place on Good Friday, dark Friday, dead Friday. For
some time, he had let his hope take flight, daring to believe he had
seen, in Jesus, his own Messiah’s face. But then Friday came, and he
watched that face drain into gray; he saw his Lord hang limp upon the
cross. And somehow, someway, he did not flee. He did not fall away. He
did not sink into despair.
Instead, Joseph of Arimathea “took courage and went to Pilate and
asked for the body of Jesus” (Mark 15:43). Three nails and a spear had
snuffed out his sun. And without any light to guide him, Joseph still
obeyed.
Joseph’s Unlikely Obedience
In this simple account of Jesus’s burial, we find a most unlikely
obedience.
First, Joseph was not one of the twelve disciples, whom we might
expect to see at such a moment. Until now, in fact, he had followed
Jesus “secretly” (John 19:38). “A respected member of the council”
(Mark 15:43), Joseph was a disciple in high places, a man who kept his
allegiances mostly quiet. Yet on Good Friday, when his allegiance was
least likely to do him good, he speaks.
Second, burying Jesus would have cost Joseph dearly. Financially, he
bought the linen shroud himself and placed Jesus in a tomb he had just
cut — no doubt with other purposes in mind (Mark 15:46; Matthew
27:57). Ceremonially, handling a dead body rendered him unclean. And
socially, he embraced the indignity of touching blood and sweat, of
bending his grown body under another’s, as if he were a slave or Roman
soldier.
Third, and most surprising, Joseph, along with the other disciples,
had every reason to feel his hopes crucified, breathless as the body
he carried. We have no cause to suspect he saw the resurrection
coming. Like the eleven, huddled in that hopeless locked room, he
surely expected the stone to stay unmoved.
To be sure, Joseph’s act was beautiful. But by all appearances, it was
hopelessly beautiful. Beautiful like a farmer in famine, tenderly
planting a seed he never expects to see. Beautiful like the last
living soldier, marching into battle alone.
And yet, maybe even then, Joseph’s hope had one more star still
shining. And maybe it has enough life to give light to ours.
Last Star in the Sky
Amid all the darkness, a glimmer appears, faint and far off. Joseph,
Luke tells us, “was looking for the kingdom of God” (Luke 23:51). He
was looking on Friday morning; somehow, he was still looking on Friday
evening, even as he held the kingdom’s dead King. What light sustained
such a look?
Perhaps Joseph remembered how his father Abraham had believed “in hope
. . . against hope” (Romans 4:18). And perhaps he, like Abraham,
carried this slain Isaac to the tomb considering, on some dim level,
“that God was able even to raise him from the dead” (Hebrews 11:19).
“God’s kingdom often advances most in the midst of unexpected,
unlikely obedience.”
Perhaps he recalled how God had lit up black mornings before, raising
the sun as if from a tomb. Perhaps he faintly wondered whether this
lifter of Lazarus might somehow lift himself. Perhaps he held the
shadow of a hope that Jesus was still somehow the Christ, and that the
Christ couldn’t stay dead forever. The Pharisees remembered that Jesus
said, “After three days I will rise” (Matthew 27:63); maybe Joseph did
too. Maybe he couldn’t forget.
Either way, hope held a few final breaths in Joseph’s lungs, even
after Jesus’s had left. So, he put one heavy foot in front of the
other. He defied despair, defied his feelings, defied probabilities,
and held the man he had followed. He walked under the gathered
darkness of Good Friday, a man weighed down with the world’s dying
hope. He took this lifeless King, carefully buried him, and somehow
still believed his kingdom would come.
Have you known such a hope, one that meets you on dark mornings and
rolls away the covers like a stone? Have you learned to look for the
kingdom under the light of the sky’s last star? And if not, can you
follow Joseph’s footprints, and dare to obey even when hope seems
dead?
Courage to Keep Looking
We might imagine that experiences like Joseph’s have ceased on this
side of the empty tomb. While Christ lives, can hope ever seem dead?
No doubt, Joseph walked on unique ground. No saint since him has
fought to believe and obey under circumstances so dire. None of us has
held our Lord’s dead body.
But we should beware of underestimating how confused, futile, dark,
and hopeless we can feel, even with Easter behind us. Jesus spoke of
dark and cold days to come (Matthew 24:12). Peter wrote of grief and
Paul of desperate groaning (1 Peter 1:6; Romans 8:22–25). At times,
the great apostle himself bent down — discouraged, weary, “perplexed”
(2 Corinthians 4:8). Post-Easter, our hope ever lives and reigns, but
we cannot always see him. Some nights here seem too dark.
We might wish to walk beneath skies always bright, our hands full of
breathing hope, our faith nearly turned to sight. Those days do come
and, oh, what a gift they are. Looking for the kingdom feels easy
then. So does obeying the King.
But for many of us, days will come when we feel more like Joseph,
looking for a kingdom we cannot see. Our feelings may tell us the
kingdom is dead, just as Jesus’s tomb seemed closed forever. But as
Joseph’s story reminds us, God’s kingdom often advances most in the
midst of unexpected, unlikely obedience. The tree inches upward,
unseen, from the mustard seed. The leaven spreads silently through the
lump. And in the midnight of our obedience, the darkness of the tomb
awaits the moment when lungs will fill again with hope.
So then, with Joseph, take courage. Keep praying, keep waiting, keep
looking for the kingdom you cannot trace. Set your weary heart like a
watchman on the walls, asking and aching for morning. Obey your Lord
in the darkness, and dare to believe that he will bring the dawn.
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